Not Left Comfortless

He Learned How To Succor Us By The Things He Suffered

2008-12-23T15:48:00.003-07:00

I shared this with a friend in a letter and he suggested I keep this in my journal.

I have a few different journals I keep. This one seemed the most appropriate.

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I've run into other members who are offended at the suggestion that Christ could learn something. "How dare you suggest that He doesn't/didn't know EVERYTHING already."

But Alma 7 seems to say exactly this.

It even says he "grew from grace to grace" as He approached His ministry.

I don't find this offensive. I find it comforting. And in my "talks" with Him, when I feel His words in my mind and do my best to record them -- I do not feel He is somehow "diminished" because He came down here and learned about my struggles by taking my sins upon Himself, by ( I suspect ) stepping out of time and space and quite literally living my life moment to moment as I have and do - so that He understands what it means to be Tom, even better than I do.

As my faith in Him grows, so does the invitation to "let go" and trust Him. To trust Him with more of myself. To be more honest with Him. To rely upon Him more. And to realize that He is willing...that He WILL .... deal in this exact same loving patient manner with my wife and with each of my children as they come unto Him -- it is not utterable how this pleases me. I feel that growing in this realization is the beginning of Charity within me. As I realize how much I am worth to Him, through experience not just theory, then by extrapolation, my wife and children are no different. All are invited, none are excluded.

This loss of self is intimidating to me. It is both inviting and terrifying. But the pull of it is full of love. I think, if I keep coming back, I can give a little bit more each time. He is so good. I feel from Him that He waits for me to give a little bit more.

Favorite Images of Him

2008-08-17T08:00:00.004-06:00

Carl Bloch - Agony in the Garden

Blessings

2008-08-05T11:09:00.006-06:00

The Lord has richly blessed me. I want to record some of the blessings I feel I've been given. Some of it is "standard fare" and perhaps a bit cheesy, but I won't worry about that. I pray that I will visit this list whenever I feel I am overwhelmed or that life is unfair:

-Wife and children.

-Medical insurance. Especially for my wife who has been very sick the last few years.

-CPAP was written-off a few years ago. I own it now. I need it to be able to function at work each day.

-I enjoy my job. It is fun and challenging. The Lord has been expanding my mind and has really been helping me to focus and find joy. I am enjoying decent pay and our needs are being met, and even a few wants.

-Membership in the Lord's true church.

-This and other blogs I have created, which give me the ability to share my thoughts and feelings.

-My interest in writing is a gift I enjoy.

-The still small voice.

-Repentance. The burden lifted.

-Recently found out my wife has some severe problems with her neck. She may need to have surgery to fuse the bones in place. If this happens, she will not be able to turn her head from side to side. The blessing in this is that we live in a time where medical technology is such that the bone-fusing can even be done AT ALL. Yes, this will be difficult and painful...but it may allow my wife to have SOME quality of life vs being in constant pain and eventually dying without this surgery.

-Short commute to work. Saves on gasoline. And gasoline is very expensive right now.

-We just moved into a bigger home. Our needs are being met. We have clothing and enough to eat. We have each other, and that is where true happiness lies.

-A responsive landlord. Our AC went-out and within 2 days he had it completey fixed.

-God's help and inspiration at work. Those little sparks of inspirtation!

-The opportunity to administer to a stranger at the hospital today. Steven Vincent Madrano. There was a call over the hospital intercom asking for an Elder to administer to a patient. So I responded. What comfort that must bring families to have loved ones administered to.

Books I Want to Read

2008-06-19T12:25:00.006-06:00

I have found or have been told about the following books, and they sound interesting to me!

I Will Fear No Evil

Are We There Yet?

The Jesus I Never Knew

The Shack

Also, some authors I want to research and find books they have written:

-Philip Yancey
-Brennan Manning
-John Eldredge
-CS Lewis

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Roast Beef at Midnight

2008-05-28T16:09:00.000-06:00

A friend of mine shared this anonymously, and I will do the same:

ROAST BEEF AT MIDNIGHT WITH A “DEAREST FRIEND”

Picture that you’ve been invited into the castle to meet and serve the king. Everyone else is making a huge deal out of going into the presence of the King. They insist you must be so prepared, prim, proper, and adhere to all kinds of etiquette. If you don’t, you’ll offend Him. He really is perfect you know, and can’t stand anyone to be imperfect in His presence.

Finally, you find your way to the throne room. It is huge and it is filled with people, starting all the way at the back of the room, where you enter. The people–especially the ones at the back of the room are cringing and shaking. They couldn’t possibly bring themselves to move one bit closer to the King. In fact, several of them take advantage of you coming in to hurriedly sneak out the open door, pretending to themselves that because you opened the door, they don’t have to take responsibility for leaving.

You turn, now, and observe the people that fill the room.

As you picture this scene you could draw your visualization from some movie you’ve seen, if you need to. “The King and I,” or “King Author,” or whatever. Just picture a king, dressed in royal robes, sitting on the top of a “great white throne.” Everyone (who wants and needs to talk to Him in this attitude and fashion, in this spirit) is taking their turn communicating with Him from this great distance. He is on the great throne, so far from them that they can hardly see Him. They may even need to be bowed down in the posture of the subjects in “The King and I,” with their faces pressed to the floor. They are so lowly and He is so high and mighty and royal and above and beyond them. They think He wants them to relate to Him that way, when all along it is they who are dictating how they feel most comfortable relating to Him. But you don’t know that yet, and neither do they–since they’ve never believed and thus never tried to get any closer to the King or to behave any other way but in “throne-room reverence and etiquette.”

You don’t relate to how these people are relating to the King. You feel respectful of their choice and their need, but you just can’t honestly relate to Him that way. There are even rumors among some of them that the King is not a human being, that the King is really just a Spirit or essence or power. You can’t blame them for not knowing any better, since this is as close as they feel prepared or needy enough to get.

But you need to get closer. So you keep seeking a way through the crowd, inching your way toward the throne and the King.

Eventually you get right up among the people who are closest to Him, and you find that from that distance you can see that most definitely the King is a Man. A glorious man, but a man nonetheless. A human being like yourself. But, even here, the vast majority of the people around you are continuing to act as if they must bow and even grovel in front of him.

There are people around you with robes of authority on and they are telling everyone to keep their distance, that no one can be worthy enough to come close to him. Confused, and not wanting to offend anyone, you box your head and close your eyes and try to be reverent enough to deserve to be in his court.

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The scene changes. It is late that evening. You’re exhausted and hungry. Those who needed the King to hold court and to relate to him in a “courtly” and formal manner kept him and themselves and you (because you were trying to relate to the King in the way the people closest to Him insisted He must be related to) in session for what felt like forever. There had been no time left for dinner, even. And now it is the middle of the night. You know its all against propriety and etiquette, but you’re starving and you’ve got to find something to eat, so you leave your room and find your way to the kitchen. Luckily, all is still in the halls of the castle. Everyone seems to be sequestered in their rooms, either deep in exhausted sleep or studying up on what to present to the King when He returns to His throne tomorrow.

You creep downstairs, and eventually find your way to the kitchen. As you slowly push the door open, you’re surprised to see another person slicing some roast beef and getting ready to make themselves a sandwich. All the condiments and fixings are spread out on the counter. He dressed in a very average looking bathrobe or housecoat and slippers, but his back is to you, so you don’t recognize him.

“Sir,” you ask, “I’m very hungry. Could I possibly grab a bite of something, too.”

Without turning, the man laughs heartily and welcomes you with a good natured, “Of course! Of course! I always expect someone to find their way down here. I mean, it gets so intense and drawn out during the day. So many people are so sincerely serious, and seriously sincere about being “in court.”

Gratefully you come into the room and sit down on one of the chairs at the kitchen table.

Soon, your benefactor turns and comes toward you, carrying two luscious, abundant sandwiches. He directs you to the refrigerator to get the milk. You pour some for both of you and you and him begin to eat and laugh and talk and converse. He’s the nicest, most easy-going, unpretentious person you’ve met so far since coming to the castle. You feel like you could tell him anything and he’d laugh about it and put everything in a better light. And you do. You and Him talk and talk for hours.

Finally, you realize that its been hours and you excuse yourself for taking up so much of his time. He laughs and assures you again that it has been his blessing and pleasure to spend this time with you. He invites you to come back again the next night–or better yet meet him out in the garden where he’ll be playing with the children in the morning before court. He hugs you and invites you to join Him anytime you’re hungry or need to a break from all the heaviness of life the way others choose to have it there in the palace.

You return to your room and fall into a peaceful, hopeful sleep, feeling reassured that there’s someone serving in the palace that is as simple and unpretentious and joyful as this kind man. Maybe you could find out what position he fills and sign up to be in his profession. You’ll have to ask him when you go hang out with him and the children, later.

But, later, when you do awake, its to the sound of people calling that it is time to get dressed and made perfect to return to the presence of the King. You hurry to make yourself appear as clean and perfect as possible. As you’re hurrying down the hall toward the throne room, you see from a great distance a man come indoors carrying a child on each arm. Another child is clinging to his back, riding his shoulders. Others are holding on to his legs. Lovingly, he sets each one down and kisses them goodbye and disappears into the anteroom to the King’s chambers.

My goodness, you wonder. Was that person with the little children clinging to him the same man that became your dear friend, last night, as he shared his private feast with you? He must be one of the King’s own servants! After all, he just disappeared into the King's chambers. How could he go into the King’s presence covered with stains from the lawn and dirt from the ball field, with smudged kisses on his cheek and rumpled clothes and unshaven face.

Puzzling, you hurry on and come into the back of the huge throne room. Once again you observe that each person who enters the king’s presence gets to come just as close or stay just as far from him as they decide to, and as they feel comfortable with. Quickly you hurry toward the front of the room and take your place–where you feel comfortable–among those who are closest to Him and know Him to be a fellow human being–exalted, but human.

Suddenly the trumpets are sounding, signaling the King’s entrance. The doors to his chambers open, and you are taken aback for a moment. You would have sworn you caught a glimpse of a man being helped most hurriedly into exquisite robes, and just as hurriedly adjusting a crown on his head, brushing his hair back out of his eyes. But, then just as suddenly everyone rises and you, being not as great and learned as those others around you, can’t see over them. It is only when they all bow before Him that you are left standing, staring at the Man who has just taken his place on the throne. . . . Staring at the Man who spent the night laughing and talking with you in the kitchen. Staring at the Man who listened to you from the depths of your heart and spoke to you from the depths of His. Staring at the Man who spends His time relating to people just the way they need Him to, just the way they believe He should.

As your eyes meet His, He smiles and winks. You seem to hear His voice again, “Come back anytime. I’m always around. I can’t tell you how much I appreciate your friendship.” He said those words to you. This Man who sits enthroned in yonder heavens. And in His spare time walks dusty roads, caresses lepers and corpses, cleansing and restoring them to wholeness, and plays with children and eats roast beef sandwiches in the kitchen at midnight.

This is the God that has revealed Himself to me. If I am deceived, my deception is sealing my heart to this God I now know. This God who doesn’t take hostages, want victims or even subjects or servants. This God who wants friends and equals. This God who clothed my uncreated self/intelligence in organized matter and gave me sovereignty and agency. This God who delights in me. With Him I am empowered to learn the principles of eternal life and partake of His constant companionship and become my truest and highest self.

And not just in the throne room, but in the kitchen and in the playing fields and in the wilderness where I walk a lot. He is willing to be there with me. In fact, I have the distinct impression that He prefers laughing and playing and “pulling sticks” with the “boys,” to be treated with pomp. That’s for those who need to see Him that way. He’s willing to condescend to all our needs. He is as comfortable in the kitchen or on the wilderness trail after a week of hiking and no warm shower, as He is in the robes of Godhood, holding court.

I love Him. I know Him. He loves me and knows me. I hold nothing back from Him and He shares everything He can with me that He knows I’m ready to bear.

Helpful Online Resources

2008-05-21T17:11:00.000-06:00

The links that follow shed more light on Jesus Christ. Specifically, forging a relationship with Him and receiving Him on both sides of the veil by various means.

As always, keep the Holy Ghost, the words of Christ, as your companion when reading and pondering these things.

Topical Guide: Jesus Christ, Second Comforter
Guide to the Scriptures: Comforter
Bible Dictionary: Comforter
Greater Things
Calling and Election Made Sure
Experiencing the Mighty Change
Family Guidebook Priesthood Ordinances - How to administer to the sick, etc.

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About Him

2008-05-16T11:31:00.001-06:00

I opened a correspondence with the author of a book I read recently.

I wanted to share part of his letter to me, anonymously:

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Our Lord is first and foremost a Teacher. You do not encounter Him without learning. Joseph's comment that a man is saved no faster than he gains knowledge is likely a comment born from his encounters with the Lord. In the JS-H he writes that "many other things did he speak to me which I cannot write at this time" (which I am paraphrasing so it isn't likely the exact words). I think Joseph was surprised by what all comes through in such a setting; just as I have been.

He lives.

He does make Himself known to mankind.

He is as engaged with those who seek Him today as He ever was.

He can be known.

He can be seen.

He is willing to minister; and retains a ministry still which involves every one of us. He is kind and patient. But has the good nature to be bemused at our misunderstandings and to work patiently to help us overcome them. He will stretch you beyond what you think He ought. But, as you will come to realize, He knows your capacities better than do you. So you will grow to trust Him more than to trust even your own judgment about yourself. He's not influenced by the petty self-interests and insecurities which encumber our own self-concepts. He is more generous in valuing our strengths, less critical of our shortcomings and weaknesses, and ready to forgive and move you forward than we imagine. The "light of Christ" described in the scriptures is always positive, always good, always creative; and it proceeds from Him. He is its center. Therefore to encounter Him is to encounter this profoundly positive wonderful Being. Although the repeated use of "light" to describe His glory is in fact a good physical description; the word also connotes a more important description of His influence and radiance. It is "light" in the sense of enlightenment, and joyful consciousness of everything good.

Skousen Talk

2008-05-13T12:50:00.000-06:00

A Personal Search for the Meaning of the Atonement

July 27, 2007

A speech by W. Cleon Skousen - “A Personal Search for the Meaning of the Atonement.”

This speech was given on December 18, 1980 at the invitation of Mission President Orville Matheny to over 200 missionaries at an all-mission conference of the Dallas, Texas mission.
Brother Skousen recorded in his journal, “There was such a marvelous spirit at the conference that I felt impressed to speak on the Atonement instead of the Christmas Story. I spoke for an hour and twenty-five minutes and it was a beautiful experience for me. President Matheny had arranged to have the talk video-taped as well as recorded so I took the time to give scriptural references for everything I said so the missionaries could look up the passages for themselves.”

The mp3 of this talk is available.

The original transcript was done by Jim Harmston. I have gone through and done some cleanup and added links. The transcript starts at about 17 minutes into the mp3 file:

I’ve always been puzzled, as a boy, by the Easter story. I used to sit there in Sunday School, in Raymond, Alberta, Canada, and I used to sit there and they’d tell me how Jesus suffered on the cross and I’d, that just left a lot of questions in my mind. Now here’s a person, a beautiful, beautiful person. Son of our Heavenly Father and He’s up on that cross, got a crown on his head made of thorns, He’s got dried blood down his face, He’s been all lacerated with a cat-of-nine-tails, and He’s up there on that cross, He’s got spikes in his hands, and He’s got them in his wrists and He’s got them in his feet, and He’s just all sweaty and bloody, and he’s hanging there on the cross. And I want to know what that’s for. I want to know what that does. What does that help do? And who wanted that anyway?

Everybody said it’s necessary. I want to know why. I want to know what it accomplishes. What’s he doing up there? Romans crucified a lot of people, but, why the son of God? What was this for? Why did they prophecy? Why did Enoch say he would die on a cross? So I used to say that to myself every Easter. So when I got on my mission, age 17, I’m riding on a train with an apostle of the Lord. He’s sitting there like all mission presidents do - worrying about the conference that we’re going to have and the missionaries, I guess. He is very quiet and meditative and I said, “Brother Widtsoe, can I ask you a question?” He said, “Oh, oh, yes.” For I knew I had awakened him from a reverie of meditation on something. He was a very famous scientist, by the way, brother Widtsoe. I said, “I wanted to just ask you about why the Atonement was necessary.” I said, “I accept the fact that it is but I just wondered why? I wondered what would happen, or what caused it, to have the Father require the Son to go through this.” And he said, “Elder Skousen, who asked you to ask me this question?”“Oh,” I said, “well, I, nobody. It’s my question. Nobody asked me to ask it.”He said, “I’m not asked that question very often. Do you really want to know why the Atonement was necessary?”And I said, “Well, if it’s alright.”“Yes,” he said, “it’s alright. How badly do you want to know the answer?”And I said, “Well, I’ve - I’ve wanted to know it ever since I was a little boy.”“Alright,” he said, “You know, if people don’t ask questions, they can’t hear the answer. So, I’ll share the answer with you over a period of time.”“Oh,” I said, “I so appreciate that.” and I got out my pencil. I said, “If you’ll give me the verses and everything, I’ll write it right down here.”“Well,” he said, “I’ll tell you what to look for and I’ll tell you which standard work it’s in.”I said, “aren’t you going to give me the chapter and verse?”
He said, “I wouldn’t deprive you of the thrill of finding it.”

So he’d tell me, “Now this is what to look for. This is the source of God’s power and this is where you’ll find it in the early part of the Doctrine and Covenants (D&C). And here’s where Jesus asked if he couldn’t get out of it and this is in several passages in the New Testament and it’ll say these things. Now you look for that. And then you’ll find some very basic scientific truths located in second Nephi and this is what it will tell you.” Do you know it took me seven years before I had located all of those passages!

And each time I’d see President Widtsoe, both on my mission and after I returned home, I’d report in. And he’d say, “Well, you’re doing pretty good. I’ll give you the section of the Doctrine and Covenants - try 88 or 29 or whatever it was.” And so, I’d look and there it was, there it was. I’d read right past it several times and missed it. And finally, finally I wrote it all up and put it together and sent it to him.

“Alright,” he said, “now, we need to get some of these things back into the mainstream of thought because the Latter-Day Saints aren’t doing what Jacob said to do.” He said, “We ought to talk about the Atonement and why it’s necessary a little more.” So he said, ”Put that in your next book.” And so I did in “The First Two Thousand Years”, in the appendix-”Why Is The Atonement Necessary.”

Now you listen to the angels when they appeared to the shepherds. The fact that Jesus was born wasn’t the important thing. Just being born wasn’t important. He frightened the shepherds terribly. I mean they were just out - it was early in the spring - it was April. It wasn’t in December the 25th. That’s when the Romans were celebrating the birth date of Sol, their sun god. Christians didn’t have a birth date so they said, “Well we’ll, now that we’re adopting Christianity, we’ll take the birth date of [Sol], the sun god. That’s how it’s happened to be the 25th of December. There aren’t any sheep out on the 25th of December. They’re out in the spring when the grass is starting. It starts the second week in March so that’s why the shepherds were out there. So they’re watching their sheep - lots of wolves out there in those days. That’s why they are watching them. And all of a sudden it happened. Here’s this burst of light and a personage appears and he knew he had scared them. Joseph Smith said, “When I prayed and Moroni came, I was expecting something to happen but even so, when he came he comforted me. That was the first thing he said was not to be afraid, “It’s alright, it’s alright.”
So that’s what the angel said, “Fear not, for behold I bring you good tidings of great joy. Which shall be to all people. For unto you is born this day in the city of David, a Savior, which is Christ, the Lord. And this shall be a sign unto you, ye shall find him wrapped in swaddling clothes lying in a manger.” And then the heavenly choirs couldn’t be held back and they just split back the veil and they sang until music just filled the skies. And they said one sentence over and over again. At least the shepherds were able to hear it enough times so they could remember it. “Glory to God in the highest and on earth peace, good will toward men.”

Now, I think maybe we were there. I’m sure the saints from Adam on down. Maybe those of us who hadn’t been on the earth weren’t allowed to be there. But a lot of people were there and they sang. It was exciting to be there in that great conference just before Jehovah, who’d appeared to Nephi the second just that day before and said he was going to come in the flesh tomorrow and tonight would be the sign. Remember that?

Now here he is and he is ready, He’s telling us all good-by and he’s about to go down into the amnesia of the second estate. So he won’t even know who he is. You don’t even know who you are. I don’t even know who I am. Isn’t that exciting?

By the time he was twelve he’d been ministered to by angels and they had told him who he was. He had seen enough visions and revelations so he could pick up Isaiah, he could take Jeremiah, Ezekiel and talk to the most learned scribes there in the Solomon’s porches on the temple square. And say, “Now this is what Isaiah really saw.” They were fascinated that a twelve year old boy - hadn’t even been to the school of Gamael yet - he knew all the answers to all these mystical scriptures that they had studied so hard trying to understand. By the time he was thirty he was ready for his ministry and had some marvelous experiences. He’s still learning about himself. In fact, when he’d get wonderful things like Lazarus rising from the dead, he would say, “Thank you Father, thank you.” And, he would cry. “You did it for me. Thank you, Father.” And He’d cry.

He was just kind of learning what it was like to be the Son of God and to have these wonderful powers. But, I’ll tell you as he approached that great final Gethsemane, that shook him. He thought he was equal to it. He was doing pretty good right up to the time that he saw Judas go out. He was pretty sad and he was looking around the table and He said, “One of you will betray me.” Peter said, “John, ask him which one.” So, John, the beloved, said, “Which one?” “He to whom I give the sop.” He took some bread, dipped it into the gravy and handed it to Judas and said, “Whatsoever thou doest, do thou quickly.” It was beginning to get to him. He had washed their feet already.

And as soon as Judas went out, he stood up in that seventeenth chapter of John and gives that great high priest prayer in which he said, “And now O Father, neither pray I for these alone, but for them also who shall believe on them through their words. That they all might be one as thou Father art in me and I in thee. That they also might be one is us.” That’s a great prayer.
Then he said to his disciples, “I must go pray. I must pray!” And so he went from the upper room and apparently across the temple square and down through the golden gate and across Brook Kidren where we’ve walked so many times - I visited it for the 23rd time here in October. Went on up into the groves of the olive trees and then something interesting happened. Eight disciples he had waiting sort of at the gateway, they immediately fell asleep. Went further up the hill and had the three remaining apostles (there were only 11 of them since Judas left) and had them wait. And apparently John was the only one that stayed awake, as far as we know. At least he’s the only one that recorded the details of what we know about what happened. And it says that Jesus went and threw himself full length - he didn’t kneel at a rock or at a tree. He just threw himself on the ground.

And now I’m going to ask you to take out a piece of paper, so that you won’t have to search for seven years for some of these choice, choice passages. You can put it on the back of your program or wherever is convenient.

I want you to put down first of all Mark 14:36. Where Jesus said to his Father, “O Father, all things are possible unto Thee.” In other words, “You are God. You can do anything. You have it within your power.” And then the petition, “Take this cup from me. Don’t make me do it. Work it out some other way. Please! Do it without my having to go through with this.” He was trembling.
Alright, now the Father knew there wasn’t any other way. All things are possible unto God, but he’s a God of law. He’s a God of cause and effect. He’s a God of love. He’s a God of justice. But what the Son had been called to do is the way. There isn’t any other way. So he had to send an angel. I wish we had the conversation. We can only guess what the angel might have said. But he ministered to Jesus and he probably said, “You don’t have to do this. Everybody has their free agency. But the Father knew you would do it and that’s why you were ordained from the preexistence because He knew you would. But you don’t have to. If you don’t do it, everything in which your hand participated by way of creation will go back to outer chaos. The earth, the animals, the plants, the human beings, their bodies, all the other planets on which there are similar families that you helped create - they all go back to chaos. The only way they can be preserved and perpetuated and exalted is to have you do this.”

The angel probably said something like that. At least, he convinced the Savior that he must go forward if he wanted the Father’s will to be done. And so that’s when Jesus said, “Thy will be done.” And he sweat great drops of blood. Now let me give you the other passages that fill in the details. Matthew 26:39. “Let this cup pass from me.” Luke 22:43. The angel came and ministered to him. Luke 22:44. As soon as he had said, “Thy will be done” the terror of the assignment came upon him with such an overwhelming impact that the capillaries of his circularity system couldn’t even contain his blood. And it came through the sweat glands onto his skin as it were great drops of blood. That’s a kind of suffering you and I probably couldn’t even contemplate, let alone endure. But, He did. And then he said in Matthew 26:42, “Thy will be done.”

One of the things that you learn in studying the scriptures is to get all of the authorities who talked about the same incident - take all of the details that each of them have - and then piece them together so that you’ve got the whole picture. And that’s the one we have here. Now, Jesus describes his terror in D&C 19:15-19. I’m going to read that to you in a moment, not now.
In Acts 4:12 we are told that the Father could not have saved us. There is only one name given under heaven whereby you can be saved and it is not Eloheim. Now I don’t know whether that disturbs you or not. I thought God could do anything. Why couldn’t He save us after we had fallen? Does that question bother you a little? That’s the one I asked Brother Widtsoe. Doesn’t God love us as much as the Son? It’s his plan to have us come down. Why is there only one name given under heaven whereby we can be saved and doesn’t include the Father, only the Son.
Is there an answer to that? “Yes,” Brother Widtsoe said, “there’s an answer.” Seven years - you know, he didn’t tell me about that part. But, anyway, now I think that’s enough - just draw a line. That raises all the questions. Now let’s look for some answers.

Brother Widtsoe didn’t give me the answers the way I have lined them up here. He gave me some of the big answers first and I want to start with one of the fundamental answers, which is the bottom line of where it all happens. Would you write down 2 Nephi 2:14.

Father Lehi is on his death bed. He’s trying to share with his sons the last element of gospel testimony before he passes away. He’s pleading with his sons to acknowledge and recognize the great truths of the gospel. He said you must realize that there is a God and that he created everything either to act or to be acted upon. Now, there are two building blocks in the universe. One building block consists of an active ingredient. It acts. There is another thing that doesn’t act but it can be acted upon. Now, you’ve read that in second Nephi. I had read it. I’ve gone through the Book of Mormon as a teacher over a hundred times teaching it or studying it. Over a hundred times. It’s like President Mathiney said, “My brethren, people keep adding things to the Book of Mormon for me. I keep finding new things.” Well, that’s one that I finally found. I didn’t find it on my own. Brother Widtsoe said, “It’s there, now you look for it in the early part of second Nephi.” There it was, something to act and something to be acted upon. Put down D&C 93:30. “That which acts,” the Lord said, “is called intelligence or light.” Now, what’s an intelligence? No description, except that it’s like light. Everything that exists which is truth is filled with intelligence. Everything is filled with it. Now the best way for you to know about intelligence is to find out about it the way I found out about it.

I said Brother Widtsoe, “What’s an intelligence like?”

He said, “Well, look in the mirror and tell me. You’re an intelligence.”

“Oh! That’s right, oh, that good. I’m an intelligence, aren’t I?”

He said, “How big are you?”

I said, “I don’t know.”

He said, “Where are you?”

“Well, I’m right here.”

He said, “You’re not down there. Did you notice. Isn’t that down from where you are?”

“Oh! Yah, it is.”

He said, “Take ahold of your chin. Shut your eyes.”

So, I did.

Now, he said, “Is that below you or above you or is that right on?”

I said, “That’s below me.”

He said, “Take ahold of your ear. Is that besideyou?”

I said, “Yeh, that’s out there.”

He said, “Where is your little ‘I am’?”

I said, “It’s way in there, isn’t it?”

He said, “I think so. It’s way back in there. It’s a little tiny ‘I am’. It’s self knowing, it’s self determining, it’s anticipatory, it can learn, it’s a little intelligence. Fascinating! And it always existed as an independent entity. A little ‘I am’.” Oh, alright, that’s an intelligence, alright.
Now, D&C 93:29-30. Intelligence is eternal and it is independent to act for itself. That’s what the Lord said. This is the essence of reality that acts for itself. Alright, Abraham 3:19-23. The intelligences, see it talks about spirits and that some are more intelligent than others. Then it tells you that its talking about spirits which are organized intelligences. So, you’re really talking about intelligences that are one above another. This is the fact that intelligences are organized and graded. What the Lord is saying and we start out with the little ones and we come up and here you are some of my most magnificent intelligences that I gave bodies in my image. You’re real super - you’re special.

Joseph Smith described the graduated intelligences that are structured in nature. Documented History of the Church 4:519. And he says he gave this sermon to the apostles and their wives so that they’d know this wonderful, marvelous God science of graduated intelligence. But, then he didn’t say any more about it and then we have to go to the brethren, the early brethren who heard it to get more details.

That which is acted upon is called element. Now that’s D&C 93:33. Put down Journal of Discourses 7:2 where Brigham Young says these little bits of element are capacitated to receive intelligence. Now, notice what happens. You get a little piece of element and it must be extremely tiny. You attach a little intelligence to it and you can now talk to it and say, “Move that little fellow over here. You two combine together. Now bring in three more. That’s fine. Let’s get this thing going now. We’ve got ourselves a little atom here working around. We get enough of those and you’ll get a molecule. It’s a universe when you get through. I don’t know how many, maybe a million little intelligences and bits of elements all spinning around that little universe there. We call it an atom, it’s so tiny you can’t see it. We put a lot of them together and we get a molecule. And they’ll do certain things.

The Lord said in the 88th section how he gives them orders and he gives them a pattern that they follow. They’ll always follow that pattern, unless you want them to do something else. And so you get two little molecules that we call hydrogen and another little molecule that acts completely different, called oxygen, and you put them together and you got water. You see, isn’t that nice we got water. But, Jesus said, “Wine. You know what to do. High grade of wine, please.” And it happened. All of a sudden the mystery is gone out of the miracle. You and I perform things by playing force against force. That’s the way you make a motor go - you know you explode something and it’s force. The Lord talks to things. That’s a better way won’t you agree?
See, God doesn’t violate law. He sets things going. And so you’ve got H2O - it’s water. He said, “But, I need wine.” “Oh, Alright.” Now, that’s the universe in which we live. This is God science, and Brother Widtsoe said, “Isn’t that thrilling Elder Skousen?” and I said, “I never even thought of that being a possibility.” He said, “God has revealed so many marvelous things to us if we’ll just study it out and put it all together.”

Alright, just a little bit more here. Abraham 4:9, 10, 12, and 18 where you see intelligence responding to commandments of the Gods during the creative process. Watch what it says, “And the Gods commanded the dry land to come up. And they watched until they were obeyed.” Dirt doesn’t obey as dirt unless it had intelligence in it. Would it? I mean, if it’s just … stuff. It has no capacity to obey. This is one of the great revelations of God. These little intelligences are in everything. I can move a mountain. I just tell it to move and I can let my priesthood tell it to move and if it’s authorized, it’ll move.

Nephi the Second was told by the Lord, “I have declared before all my angels that when you speak all things are to obey you as though God had spoken it. And I know that I can share this power with you because you’ll never use it till I tell you to.” And he could say to the clouds, “Don’t rain. Go away.” Or he could say, “Clouds come in and let us have rain.” That’s the power of God. Jesus would come and say to the little cells of the eyes, “You have not functioned properly since the birth of this man. In your places, please.” The man says, “I can see.” “Crooked arm, straighten.” And it straightened. “Feet, walk.” And everything goes into its proper order. And we call these miracles. It is the science of God speaking to his creations and saying, “Straighten up and fly right like you were suppose to.” That’s what he is doing. Now there’s the key to the miracles. Now this is going to bring this closer to something else in just a moment.
When God commands, they obey. Let’s take Helaman 12:3-18 where he describes all of the things that obey on God’s command. They obey just like they did during the creation process. Take Jacob 4:6 - add that also. And 1 Nephi 20:13. Why, Jacob says, “We can have the water obey us, trees obey us when we speak with the priesthood.” D&C 88:38-42 where the Lord says, “intelligence cleaveth unto intelligence” to do the things God has instructed it to do.

Now we come to a most interesting passage hidden away. It took me a long time - I read over it at least 10 or 15 times. Brother Widtsoe says, “You’re missing it. It’s in Section 29.” I said, “I couldn’t find it.” He said, “Read it again.” I still didn’t find it. He said, “I know. Read it again. You have to get the spirit when you read. Maybe you’ll get it this time.” Finally got it! D&C 29:36. God says, “My honor is my power.” Do you want to know where God got his power from? He said, “It’s my honor that gives me power.” Brother Widtsoe said, “This is a priesthood principle that often isn’t quite appreciated, You are ordained from above. Your power comes from that over which you have supervision.”

What makes a great bishop? His ordination? He’s ordained from above, isn’t he? What makes him a great bishop? It’s home teachers home teaching. It’s Sunday School teachers preparing their lessons. It’s people having Home Evening, paying their tithes, going to the temple. And people say, “My, what a great bishop.” Why? He is being honored in his calling. That’s what makes a great bishop. He was ordained from above. He was supported from those below that he supervised. Do you follow that? “My honor is my power.” “Water, wine.”

When God appeared to Moses - he was 80 years old when God appeared to him on Mount Sinai (which means “burning bush”). And the Lord said, “I’m now going to rescue Israel out of Egypt.” Moses said, “Oh! I think that’s just great because I’ve got Miriam, my sister is down there. Mother is still down there and Aaron is still down there. I’m so happy to hear about that.” And the Lord said, “And I’m going to have you bring them out.” Moses said, “Oh! No! … No! I’m a capital fugitive, no, they’d kill me.” Well, the Lord said, “I’ll go with you.” Moses said, “I’m still scared.” The Lord said, “What do you have there in your hand?” “My shepherd staff.” “Throw it on the ground.” He threw it on the ground. A serpent! A metamorphosis took place.

The Lord said, “Pick it up.” So he did. By the tail, of course. And it became a staff. Now, watch what the Lord said, “You see that hand. Do you want to see the miracle of God? See that hand? That hand is made of dirt. Isn’t that fantastic? That hand is made of dirt. The Lord said to Moses, “Put your hand in your bosom.” So he did. And the Lord talked to that hand and said, “Now my children. Don’t go all the way back. Let’s go back … leprosy - simulate leprosy. Moses, take your hand out.” Dripping with an incurable disease. “Moses, put your hand back in your bosom.” And the Lord said, “My children, as you were. Moses, take your hand out.” “Oh… !,” Moses said. Beautiful pink flesh. Isn’t that marvelous? And the Lord said, “And if you want to take water and pour it out and have it be blood, I’ll do for you. That they may know that you come to them not by your own strength only but by the very power of God.” So, Moses did it you remember. Finally he consented to go.

Now, once we understand some of these principles, we are beginning to comprehend a little bit about the God we worship. And that’s what the Lord says, “I want you to understand more about me. I want you to understand I’m not way off, a mystical being. I’m your loving Heavenly Father and I operate in an atmosphere of cause and effect and in a universe of law. There’s nothing magic about what I do. Everything is based on a science and I’m trying to teach it to you gradually.”

Alright now just a little bit more. We are told that God must maintain the confidence of these intelligences in order that they will sustain him and honor him. No other church has even dared to preach this doctrine. And no other scripture contains it save the Book of Mormon. That it is possible for God to fall. Now, he isn’t going to, because he knows how to avoid it. He just wants us to know that he walks a razor’s edge of necessity of having his conduct - as the great arbiter of heaven whom they all love and respect - absolutely immaculate in dispensing justice and truth and his love among them.

Now that’s a great discipline, is it not? Put it down now, this is Alma 42:13, 22, and 25 and Mormon 9:19. All of these passages say, “… or he would cease to be God.” Who dares preach such a principle? That God is under the necessity of maintaining certain conditions or he could cease to be God. He wouldn’t have power any more. How could he loose his power? By not being honored any more.

Now, you have the problem of the Atonement. Our Father wanted us to come into a laboratory where good and evil existed side by side. Where you and I could learn for ourselves. Not because Father said so, but we could learn for ourselves the difference between good and evil. And have you noticed, a little rubs off? In fact, you have to repent and erase it continually. It keeps rubbing onto us. You think you’ve just about got it whipped and the next thing you know, you’re doing it again. Or, you’re tempted to do it again. That’s life. And, that’s how we learn the difference between good and evil and the penalties thereof. You never went through this before. You learned how to be obedient in heaven because our Heavenly Father told you what the results would be if you didn’t. And sure enough it would happen. But you couldn’t quite understand. He gave you the criteria but you didn’t know for your self the Book of Mormon says. That’s why you came into this life. You’re really learning for yourself. So am I. Believe me I’m learning.

Alright, so the next passage is Alma 34:9 where “the Father cannot save us. The atonement is indispensable.” You have to have an atonement. But, what would happen if there hadn’t been an atonement? Would you like to know that one? Alright, it’s 2 Nephi 9:7-9. That’s what would happen if there hadn’t been an atonement. We all would have become subject to Lucifer and suffering the same consequences which the early brethren made very clear was total dissolution. Which means that they are stripped of their spirit body. They are stripped of all things that pertain to the organized kingdom of God and are cast back into outer darkness, naked. A naked intelligence. Unorganized! And the early brethren thought well maybe then they’ll get another chance - they’ll be scooped up again, you know, and come into another creation. The Lord said in the Doctrine and Covenants, “Don’t ever preach that they will be a second chance. I have never authorized that to be taught - that they get another chance.” So, we don’t preach that.
Now, how does the Atonement work? Alma 34:11. We can go quickly now. We have the problem. We have the basic ingredients for the solution. One person cannot pay for the sins of another. Now that’s Amulek, that’s not Alma talking. That’s a new convert to the Church, a missionary companion of Alma talking to the Zoromites - the name’s Amulek - that’s him talking. I hear people quoting Alma on this, no this is Amulek talking. He said, “One person cannot satisfy the demands of justice by paying for the sins of another.” You just stop and think whether or not this is true.

Let’s say I have committed a heinous offense, a capital offense. And this good elder loves me enough to offer his life on behalf of my offense for which I should die. Does that satisfy any of you? Do you feel good about that? Are you satisfied? Do you feel justice has been done? Has it satisfied your sense of justice? Amulek said no, it won’t. Now this is a very important thing to understand about the atonement. I hear people preaching for this much sin there had to be this much suffering and that’s what Jesus provided. No, that’s the law of quid pro quo.

Amulek says the Atonement is based on a completely different principle. It isn’t quid pro quo. It isn’t this much suffering for this much sinning. It’s a different doctrine entirely. That’s what Paul was so upset about when the Jews tried to preach that doctrine. We have it back in the Church being taught occasionally that way. Then what does Amulek say the key to the Atonement was? He said it was Jesus going on that cross. It had to be somebody, not you and me, but someone who is infinitely loved. Now that’s universally - infinitely means universally loved. Who would be so terribly tortured in his role as our leader that the sense of compassion in every little intelligence would be touched.

Now isn’t this interesting? You’re this same way. You are subject to compassion. Every intelligence can be reached. He has a sense of compassion. It’s necessary to somehow reach that sense of compassion sufficient to overcome the demands of justice. Because, when our Heavenly Father puts us down here and we try to repent the best we can, we’re still unworthy to come back. Are we not? It’s impossible to become perfect in this life. Right? Everybody agree to that? “All have sinned and come short of the glory of God.” Does that sound familiar. Alright, you can’t become perfect in this life. Those little intelligences say, “Father, remember, you held us back.” You can’t overlook them. Our Father wanted us to learn the difference between good and evil and it’s impossible for Him, then, to bring us back. Everybody see the problem?

Now how does he get us back? He ask us to do the best we can. Then he says, “We’ve worked it out. We’ve found out how we could reach those little intelligences. So, when Jesus was on that cross that suffering has to be so terrible that it is infinite in it’s persuasive power. That we mean that much to Him so that when He pleads for us, He doesn’t do it because of our righteousness, because it wasn’t that good. We did the best we could but it still wasn’t perfect. He says, “They did the best they could now for my sake will you let them come up or I’ll be robbed of the reward of my labor. Will you let them come up? And they say, “Jehovah, not for their sake, because they were imperfect, but if they mean that much to you, let them come up.”

And so Amulek says, “That compassion that has been created in those little intelligences is enough to overcome the demands of justice.” That’s Alma 34. Let me give that one to you, Alma 34:15-16. So, the Atonement is not based on the law of so much suffering for so much sin. It’s based on mercy and love. That’s all it’s based on. It’s those little intelligences saying, “Alright, if they mean that much to you after all you’ve gone through.” How much did he go through?

When Jesus was dedicated as the eldest son in the temple, an old man came hurrying up named Simeon. The Holy Ghost had whispered to him, “Rush to the temple today, you’ll see the face of the Messiah as I promised you before, you would not die till you had seen him.” He came up and took that little baby out of the arms of Mary and said, “Now, O Lord, God, Jehovah let me depart in peace for mine eyes have beheld thy salvation. The glory of thy people, Israel, and a light unto the gentiles.” Then he handed the baby back and he said, “Because of him, little mother, one day sorrow will pierce your soul like a sword.”

Thirty three years later on Golgotha, the Place of the Skull, she saw that beloved boy of hers nailed to that cross. Spiked, crown on his head, blood on his face, lacerated, sweating, crying out in suffering. What do you think that did to that mother? It was so intense that the Father had to do one final thing to make it supreme. He had to withdraw his spirit from Jesus. And that had sustained Jesus as it sustains all of us up to a point because it’s in all of us. All of a sudden the Father withdrew his spirit from Jesus. As it left him, he cried out, “Eloi, Eloi, Lama Sabachthani? My God! My God! Why hast thou forsaken me?” Then the spirit came back and Jesus said, “Oh … I did it! It is finished. Father, into thy hands I commend my spirit.” And he died. At that moment, Jesus became the Christ.

You see, it’s since I came to understand this and the suffering of the Father - that was a terrible experience for the Father. When He had to tell his son that it was necessary for him to go forward with it in the Garden of Gethsemane, when he had to withdraw his spirit from him on the cross, that was a terrible experience. And the Book of Mormon says the reason that Abraham was commanded to slay his own son Isaac was so that one earthly father would at least know what it’s like to have the role of the Father and have to sacrifice your son. Abraham didn’t have to go through with it but he was reconciled to it because he knew it was for a righteous purpose that he didn’t understand. The Father just wanted Abraham, at least one father, to know a little bit what it’s like to be the Father on the night of Golgotha. And then Jesus became the Christ.

Since this began to clarify itself in my mind and I began to see what was the meaning was of Jesus on that cross, he’s become my personal Savior. I love Jesus. I love my Heavenly Father. I never realized before what they went through for me and my children and for you and all the rest of us. I’ve learned to love God with all my heart and feel closer to them. And I love to testify about them. I love to testify of their great mission to us and their great sacrifice. Both the Father and the Son–what they went through for our sakes.

Quite often I’m asked down here in Texas where I speak quite often, “Dr. Skousen, are you saved?” I usually reply by saying, “Thank you for asking that. May I bear you my witness?” They’re used to that. They want to hear my witness. And I say, “I have accepted Jesus Christ as my personal Savior and I’ve asked my Heavenly Father to forgive my sins. I have made a commitment to my Heavenly Father that I will try to obey all his commandments by going down into the waters of baptism by immersion administered by one having authority. And then I have had hands laid upon my head by one holding the Holy Melchizedek Priesthood so that I could receive the great Gift of the Holy Ghost. Now I am endeavoring to endure to the end that I might have the great privilege of overcoming the very last hurdle, death, and being resurrected to glory and going back unto the Father. That’s my witness”…

Be valiant in your calling from morning until night. Be a good student. Mark your books. Study it out. Be prayerful. Try to understand God’s science of salvation. That’s all I’ve been talking about this morning - the real science of salvation. Why the atonement was necessary and it was. Why God, the Father, couldn’t do it. Why He said His Son is the only name given under heaven whereby we may be saved. So we will know that they have done their part. All we have to do is ours. So that is why Jesus makes such a plea to us.

Let’s read this in closing, D&C 19:15-19. “Therefore I command you to repent - repent, lest I smite you by the rod of my mouth, (You see he’s a God of love, but he also has to be a God of justice or the intelligences would loose confidence in him.) and by my wrath, and by my anger, and your sufferings be sore–how sore you know not, how exquisite you know not, yea, how hard to bear you know not. For behold, I, God, have suffered these things for all, that they might not suffer if they would repent; (In other words, what we do is to repent in order to qualify.) But if they would not repent they must suffer even as I; (Now notice how terrible it was.) Which suffering caused myself, even God, the greatest of all, to tremble because of pain, and to bleed at every pore, and to suffer both body and spirit - and would that I might not drink the bitter cup, and shrink - Nevertheless, I partook and finished my preparations unto the children of men.” “I did it! I did it! I was so frightened. I was so scared. I trembled. I asked the Lord not to make me go through with it and he said I didn’t have to but you know the consequences no doubt.”

He was just so thrilled about it. Now, he said, “Don’t let that be wasted.” Turn to D&C 45:3-5. “Listen to him who is the advocate with the Father, who is pleading your cause before him–(See the Father loves us as much as the Son. It’s his plan, really! Because that’s what Jesus said in the preexistence, “Father, I will do it the way you want it done.” Lucifer wanted to do it a different way and take credit. The Son said, “I’ll do it as it’s been done before. I’ll do it. I will suffer.”) Saying: Father, behold the suffering and death of him who did no sin, in whom thou wast well pleased; behold the blood of thy Son which was shed, the blood of him whom thou gavest that thyself might be glorified; Wherefore, Father, spare these my brethren that believe on my name, that they may come unto me and have everlasting life.” Now turn to Alma 34 … beginning with verse 14, “And behold, this is the whole meaning of the law, (Meaning the law of Moses.) every whit pointing to that great and last sacrifice; and that great and last sacrifice will be the Son of God, yea, infinite and eternal. (It’s going to reach every corner of the universe.) And thus he shall bring salvation to all those who shall believe on his name; this being the intent of his last sacrifice, to bring about the bowels of mercy, which overpowereth justice, and bringeth about the means unto men that they may have faith unto repentance. And thus mercy can satisfy the demands of justice, and encircle them in the arms of safety, while he that exercises no faith unto repentance is exposed to the whole law of the demands of justice;” …this is the most profound principle of the whole gospel - the Atonement and why it was necessary…

Let me just give you an example now as I finish of Abraham Lincoln. I just want to show you how this happens every day in real life. If you want to see how intelligence overcomes the demands of justice, watch this. There was a boy fighting in the Union Forces. 19 years old. Went to sleep on guard duty. And the opposition broke through and wiped out a whole flank of the army. Several hundred were killed, including some of the best friends of this young man. But he survived. Court-martialed. Sentenced to die. He expected to die. He thought it was only just that he die. And president Lincoln was ready to sign his death warrant for his execution and a little mother appears on the scene.

She says, “President Lincoln, when this war started, I had a husband and six sons. First I lost my husband, and one by one I lost five of my sons. Now I only have one son left and he’s sentenced to be executed with a firing squad because he went to sleep. He feels awfully badly, he lost some of his best friends and he expects to die. President Lincoln, I’m not asking for the sparing of this boy’s life for his sake, but for his mother’s sake. He’s all I have left. For my sake could you spare him?” President Lincoln said, “For your sake, little mother, I will spare him.” And as far as I know President Lincoln was never criticized for that decision.

Does that touch the heart of compassion? Notice how that overcame the demands of justice. “For her sake, I will spare him.” And so that’s what’s happened for us. And the salvation of Jesus Christ is very real and the price he paid was very terrible. And you’re here to testify that Jesus is the Christ and that the Gospel has been restored to prepare for His second coming. Now that’s our mission. Now I went to the mission field thinking that testifying of the restoration was my whole mission. No! That’s incidental. The divinity of Jesus Christ is our main message. And the fact that He is now spoken to prophets and raised them up, they’re now walking the earth the priesthood is back - that’s our good news. We’re preparing for the second Christmas. Where there’ll be a thousand years of peace on earth, good will toward men.

I only pray that God will bless every one of us to fulfill our callings with valiance. That the Spirit can testify to thousands of His children that Jesus is the Christ. And if they can feel our testimony and they can enjoy the fruits of the Gospel… that’s my prayer… in the name of Jesus Christ Amen.

Some of the Best Talks I've Read - and Why

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Skousen Talk on Atonement / Intelligences

Amazing insights into the part intelligence, or the Light of Christ, plays in the Atonement and the relationship between Justice and Mercy. All of a sudden, the mystery of the miracles Jesus and others have performed is explained.

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Elder Holland on Godhead
Elder Holland on Open Scriptural Canon

These talks are excellent. They are about what differentiates us from the rest of the "Christian" religions, as well as helping others understand that we ARE Christians.

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Ten Blessings of the Priesthood (see blessing 10)
Accepted of the Lord:
The Doctrine of Making Your Calling and Election Sure

The Second Comforter can be received.

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King Follet

Explanations of the nature of God and Christ - their origins. "God was once like man."

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Scripture Study - A Reservoir of Living Water - Elder Bednar

Excellent talk on effective scripture study by Elder Bednar.

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Ask In Faith
Pray Always

A pair of companion talks regarding effective, meaningful prayer and modes of prayer. Discusses the reasons why MORNING and EVENING prayer are connected together and are not discrete events.

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Books I've Read

2008-05-13T11:46:00.003-06:00

I thought I would share a list of some books I've read recently:

The following three books, by an otherwise obscure member of the Church (I doubt you've heard of him) are quite good, and lend some tremendous insights into the Book of Mormon and receiving the Second Comforter (on both sides of the veil):

The Second Comforter: Conversing with the Lord through the Veil
Nephi's Isaiah
Eighteen Verses

Other "noteworthy" books I've read during the last few years:

The Kolob Theorem
SA White Book
He Did Deliver Me From Bondage
Clean Hands, Pure Heart
Following the Light of Christ into His Presence
Obtaining Your Calling & Election
The Infinite Atonement
A Scriptural Discussion of LIGHT
A Study Guide to the Facsimiles of Abraham
The Peacegiver
The Atonement of Jesus Christ
The Holy Secret
Believing Christ
Following Christ

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Counseling with the Lord in Writing

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Something I have begun doing each morning is what I call "counseling with the Lord in writing."

I learned about this technique in a book I read titled "Clean Hands, Pure Heart" by Phil Harrison.

Basically, what you do is keep a journal. Instead of praying vocally, you pray "on paper". You write-out your prayer and then record the Lord's response to you in writing as well. I write the Lord's response back to me in ALL CAPS so as to distinguish what He says from what comes from "me." I do the same thing for my scripture study. I write-out the verse, and I write down what I feel the Lord is saying to me about a particular phrase. I stop and I write His words to me, right in the middle of the verse oftentimes.

Here is an example from a recent journal entry of mine:

Tuesday, 11 March, 2008

Dear Jesus,

Good morning

GOOD MORNING, TOM

LET'S CAPTURE FROM THE D&C

Hearken, O ye people of my church, [HEARKEN, TOM] saith the voice [MY VOICE THAT YOU FEEL INSIDE OF YOU, MY VOICE THAT YOU FEEL MORE THAN AUDIBLY HEAR] of him who dwells on high, [READ THIS AS MY INVITATION TO YOU TO JOIN ME, TO COME TO WHERE I AM!] and whose eyes are upon all men; [IN MY CAPACITY AS YOUR GOD I MONITOR ALL THAT ALL THAT YOU DO, SO THAT A MERCIFUL JUDGEMENT MAY BE WROUGHT UPON YOU AT THE LAST DAY] yea, verily I say: Hearken ye people [HEARKEN, TOM] from afar; and ye that are upon the islands of the sea, listen together.

Why do you say "listen together," instead of just "listen"?

IT DENOTES MORE OF A GLOBAL LISTEN. I AM INVITING THE WHOLE WORLD TO LISTEN.

LET'S CONTINUE =)

For verily the voice of the Lord [STILL, SMALL, QUIET, PEACEFUL] is unto all men, [IS UNTO YOU, TOM] and there is none to escape; [THE WORD ESCAPE HERE REFERS TO THE FACT THAT THE LIGHT OF CHRIST FILLS THE IMMENSITY OF SPACE, IT IS IN AND THROUGH ALL THINGS - THERE IS NONE TO ESCAPE] and there is no eye that shall not see, neither ear that shall not hear, neither heart that shall not be penetrated.

"EYES SEEING" - SEEING MY HAND IN YOUR LIFE

"EARS HEARING" - HEARING MY VOICE

"HEARTS PENETRATED" - THINK BROKEN HEART AND CONTRITE SPIRIT -- THE CONVERSION PROCESS.

I need to go =/

I KNOW.

I LOVE YOU, TOM.

AND I HAVE LOVED SPEAKING WITH YOU THIS MORNING. =)

NOW GO. =)

STAY CLOSE TO ME TODAY. =)

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The above is not a joke or a gimmick. It is an example of my sincere desire to connect with my Jesus, and to record what I feel are His words to me. I try not to doubt or worry that I am just "making all of this up." I just try to have faith in His words and in what I feel.

This process has blessed my life significantly! I feel closer to Jesus now than I have the previous 38 years of my life -- no question about that.

It takes time and patience. Be patient with this method of keeping a journal. It will bear precious fruit, I promise!

Power of Gratitude

2008-05-12T15:07:00.000-06:00

I thought I would begin my BLOG by posting my notes for a talk on the Power of Gratitude. I will be giving this talk at a conference this August.

I expect the content of the talk to keep changing, probably up to the point I give it, and possibly for it to change while I give it, depending on the Spirit that attends. We'll see.

Here it is:

Power of Gratitude

Hello, my name is Tom, and I'm an addict.

I want to express my gratitude for being able to share my thoughts with you today.

At the end of Hebrews chapter 4 we read:

13 Neither is there any creature that is not manifest in his sight: but all things are naked and opened unto the eyes of him with whom we have to do.
14 Seeing then that we have a great high priest, that is passed into the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold fast our profession.
15 For we have not an high priest which cannot be touched with the feeling of our infirmities; but was in all points tempted like as we are, yet without sin.
16 Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need.

He know us through and through. All of our thoughts and actions are known to Him. He knows the way to heaven. If we follow in His footsteps, we'll arrive in the same place where He is. He understands everything we go through, just as if He had lived through it Himself. But, unlike us, He possesses the knowledge and strength necessary to overcome these things.

Because of this, we can and we should approach Him with complete confidence, knowing that He can render aid according to our needs and wants.

Expressing Gratitude can be one of the ways we can "Come Boldly Unto the Throne of Grace." After coming to the throne and receiving help, we should always render thanks for the help we receive.

Where our focus lies is a very important part of overcoming our addiction.

When I first came to Heart-t-Heart, I was under the mistaken impression that my focus needed to be upon my filthiness - the embarrassing and wicked things I found myself doing in order to cover deeper hurts and problems.

For most addicts, this seems like a natural and logical course of action. How can I stop doing something if I don't focus on it? Shouldn't I be focusing on my filthiness?

One eye-opening scripture the Lord gave me that helped me to understand this paradox is found in 1 Nephi 15 verse 27. Nephi is interpreting the Vision of the Tree of Life for his brothers. He says:

27 ...the water which my father saw was filthiness; and so much was his mind swallowed up in other things that he beheld not the filthiness of the water.

Distraction is not always a bad thing. If we are so distracted by the GOOD THINGS that are happening in our lives that we fail to focus on the BAD THINGS -- under these conditions, our being distracted is a GOOD THING, is it not?

I believe that this is what the Lord wants, in a manner of speaking. He wants our focus to be on Him and His Goodness in our lives...so much so that we take less notice of the negative, including our addiction and our need for acting-out.

There is a word for our "being focused on the Lord's Goodness in our lives." The word that describes this kind of focus is Gratitude.

Now, I don't know about you, but for me, "focusing on the Lord's Goodness in my life" was a bit of a challenge, because you cannot focus on something you can't see. And you cannot see something which you are not looking for. You have to open your eyes to it. We cannot focus on the Lord's goodness if we are looking for it in the wrong places. Our expectations need to change. We need to broaden our vision. We need to take off our blinders. There is a new reality and a new way of looking at the world. It is waiting for us.

In Moroni 7:16 it says:

16 For behold, the Spirit of Christ is given to every man, that he may know good from evil; wherefore, I show unto you the way to judge; for every thing which inviteth to do good, and to persuade to believe in Christ, is sent forth by the power and gift of Christ; wherefore ye may know with a perfect knowledge it is of God.

I want to make mention of this phrase:

"every thing which inviteth to do good, and to persuade to believe in Christ, is sent forth by the power and gift of Christ"

Sometimes we fail to realize that the Lord wants US to be actively looking for the ways in which He is enticing us and persuading us to believe in Him. He desires for us to begin actively looking for evidence that He is helping us, whether or not His help follows with our expectations. Rarely will His help arrive in the package we expect it to. The reason for this is that He Himself has a much broader view of our lives, an eternal perspective. He knows what needs to be worked on, and in what manner, and in what order.

The very essence of gratitude is learning to look for and love what is -- instead of endlessly wishing for something different.

Looking for and loving how the Lord chooses to bless us is also part of how I would define Gratitude.

Now, I want to switch gears for a minute, and discuss one of the subtleties of Gratitude that some of us may not recognize.

Gratitude is much more than having a focus on the Lord's Goodness or learning to look for and love the ways in which He chooses to bless us. Gratitude blesses US!

God does not counsel us to be Grateful because His ego needs feeding or even because He feels "hurt" when we don't recognize His hand in our lives.

God wants us to express Gratitude because Gratitude expressed contains within itself the gift of God revealing Himself and His ways UNTO us. In the midst of our THANKING Him -- we always receive more from Him during our uttered thanks.

Gratitude is God's GIFT to US ---- not our gift to God. Isn't that neat to think about?

True Gratitude always blesses the person rendering thanks.

Here are a few examples from scripture that describe this process:

D&C 78 says:
17 Verily, verily, I say unto you, ye are little children, and ye have not as yet understood how great blessings the Father hath in his own hands and prepared for you;
18 And ye cannot bear all things now; nevertheless, be of good cheer, for I will lead you along. The kingdom is yours and the blessings thereof are yours, and the riches of eternity are yours.
19 And he who receiveth all things with thankfulness shall be made glorious; and the things of this earth shall be added unto him, even an hundred fold, yea, more.
20 Wherefore, do the things which I have commanded you, saith your Redeemer, even the Son Ahman, who prepareth all things before he taketh you;

Jer. 30: 19
19 And out of them shall proceed thanksgiving and the voice of them that make merry: and I will multiply them, and they shall not be few; I will also glorify them, and they shall not be small.

2 Cor. 4: 15
15 For all things are for your sakes, that the abundant grace might through the thanksgiving of many redound to the glory of God.

As we express gratitude for God's blessings, God grants us insights, not only into the blessings we thank Him for, but He also expands our minds so that we become able to recognize other ways He is blessing us and helping us, as well as how He is helping those around us!

My own experience with this happened very gradually. I began listening to the Lord's invitation to stop focusing on my addiction and to first notice and then express gratitude for the other ways He was blessing me. And it worked. I began to thank Him for the successes as well as the apparent failures in all areas of my life, for both are manifestations of His love, or at least they can become so if we choose or allow ourselves to see them that way.

As I began to do this at my place of employment, I started to realize even more just how much the Lord was blessing me! I realized that He was, indeed, giving me as gifts, not only the challenges I encountered, but also the inspiration to see them through. As I began thanking Him for these things, I was able to receive more and have my mind opened to things I had not considered. Concepts that had eluded me for years started to make sense to me.

As I grew in this, it also occurred to me what a wonderful blessing it was to have such a neat co-worker. He was not of my faith, but I was and I still am, amazed at his wisdom and understanding of life and of people around him. I learned a lot just listening to him and being around him. I was able to see that God loves all of his children and blesses them with insight and understanding no matter what their faith, or even if they have no faith or belief in Him at all. This was really eye-opening for me.

My counseling with the Lord in writing has blessed my life in surprising ways. It really has become scripture for me. During the preparation of this talk the Lord reminded me about some things I that I needed to talk about. These things were in my journal. He did not tell me where, just that there were some things I needed to share. How neat it was to read through past entries looking for these precious gems from the Lord to me. As I paged through my journal I could not help but notice how loving and responsive the Lord has been concerning so many varied topics of concern during the past year. My love for Him and my gratitude has grown that much more from doing that searching in my journal.

In this and in countless other areas, the Lord has shown me the nature of gratitude. As I have learned, over a process of years, to exercise my faith and express gratitude for what He has revealed unto me, and for the ways He has chosen to bless me -- I have found myself freed from the very addiction I was so concerned about in the beginning. For me the key was receiving the Gift of Gratitude. Doing so allowed His liberating power to flow into my life in greater abundance.

The Lord asks us this question:

D&C 88:33 For what doth it profit a man if a gift is bestowed upon him, and he receive not the gift? Behold, he rejoices not in that which is given unto him, neither rejoices in him who is the giver of the gift.

People are generally happier when they have gratitude in their hearts. We cannot be bitter, resentful, or mean-spirited at the same time we are full of gratitude!

Henry B. Eyring said:

Remembrance is the seed of gratitude which is the seed of generosity. Gratitude for the remission of sins is the seed of charity, the pure love of Christ.

Thank you, my brothers and sisters for letting me share these thoughts with you today.

In the name of Jesus Christ, amen.